I'm lucky.. i feel.. i'm lucky

Yeah... i feel so lucky... i can choose whether i want to work or stop working... its just a matter of choosing "the right" decision... but still.. I'm lucky.. i'm free to choose...

I realize.. that the most important thing for my family is... my happines... cos my happines will brighten my family... whatever my decision will be... i must consider... which choice that can make more happy... and i've found that... dropping my current (new) position will make me happy... will make my kids.. happy....

Some ppl said that i have sacrificed myself... but i don't see that sacrifice is bad thing.. sometime we must do it... cos of love.. no one to blame... its pure my decision... and if i found this decision is wrong someday... this decision is not s'thing to blame... Things change.. manythings happenned... good or bad...

So what ever it will be... i'll try to be brave enough to face it... Life is like riding a roller coaster.. and God is the mechanic... it will go up and down... but it will stop eventually.. and it will not harm you... or at least it will not harm me.. cos i trust the Mechanic so badly....

resignation letter

Yeah.. i have finally submitted my resignation letter...I have finally taken a decision.. which one i choose to be.. " working mom and stay at home mom".. I fully realize.. that both have their consequencies.. both have their own goods and bads... its just a matter of choice...

One thing that i know very well is.. i'm in the situation that i don't like (in my new position).. and can't stop complaining about it.. don't take it wrong.. i'm in a very good position.. am a National Operation Manager... but this position requires me to travel a lot.. and leaving my family back home.. maybe for any other woman... its ok.. but its not ok with me...

I miss the evening time that i used to spend with the kids.. i missed to study together with them.. i miss their laughter... they are the source of energy that God gives to me... Away from them.. make me misurable.. :-( and it affect my work here and there... it affect to my performance at work.. it affect my mood... and make me.. "can't stop complaining"... but to stop working... somehow.. make me scare... being dependent to my husband.. and having idle times at home while the kids are at school.. scared me.. but i know.. i need to choose... so for at least this 6 months... i have my own battle... which decision i have to make..

So today, i have made my decisions... i'll travel to head office tomorrow.. and i bring my resignation letter.. together with the plan for my replacement...

Well, my decision.. however.. could be a start of s'thing good... or s'thing bad... it could be right or wrong... but whatever it wil be... I believe... its the best for me... :-)