what God wants us to see?

That's the question that i have when i have watched "the passion of the Christ"... its a GOOD movie...even am not christian... its really a touching movie... and i am amazed by the fact that Jeshua's kindness and love... must be ended with that kinda tragedy in human race ever... the crucifiction.. blood... cruelties... Its very shocking me...

And thats why come to my mind a question... "what God wants us to see?" that story as a part of the scenario of life since Adam to today's life... What is all behind that? Its still remained a question.. i can not answer it...

And i am trying to sutdy the answer... i know, it perhaps can satisfy my question... but at least i am trying...

unknown errors of my life

actually "unknown errors of my life" is a tittle of a book... one of my favourites :-) but i think, we always.. everyday... have a possibility for doing our own.. unknown errors of our life...  Something that might make us suffer in the future.. or hurt other people or maybe could make other ppl suffer too.. But, not all people realize that.. unknown errors are exist in our life... everyday.. every hour and minute... the possibility for it is open.. wide...

Today, i am preparing a reconciliation of advances for 2003-2004... yeah, i must admitt our accounting is very poor... no adequate supervision.. not enough knowledge in the new system.. During the process of reconciliation i found that... pak Rickey... for years.. has been doing his own unknown errors of his life... because i was in F&A before... i must responsible for that too.. and at the end... i also found my unknown errors that i did years ago..

Its pretty tough.. its about money.. Thanks God for saving me from stealing... but still, this situation makes me.. worry...

Finally.. i only can pray... MAY GOD BLESS ME... :-)

no tittle

This is my journal of life.. where i put the daily splitting headaches, heartaches as well as joyful and heartwarming situations in my life.. Life is not easy, its never been... i dont expect for happiness everafter like in cinderella's story :-) I know, that sometimes i will meet rainbow and the other day i will meet thunder.. i fully realize that.. but, still... i need something to express the feeling inside.. something won't tell my secret.. something won't break the promise...
 
Today is July 19, 2004.... its when.. i need to do reconciliation for F&A.. and running the operation for the same time... we don't have money for delivery tomorrow.. my truck is broken in mojokerto (small town near Surabaya). God!!  Thanks for giving me a "good" boss...
 
I know, its time to ruffles some feathers.. to kick some arses... i am having hard times... and this cooperative, understanding Boss.. however, becomes one of the catalysts of my optimism..
 
Finally, at the end of this working day.. (pssst, its around 9.30pm already) i can finish the reconciliation from Jun-April 2004... Thanks God again for giving me staffs who are willing to work under pressure... without complaining.. yeah, sometimes they will find me stubborn :p hahaha....